Made In Oregon

Lets get "Scene" I need a new name.
making a new journal.
Links up soon. =]

and i hate them.
the one person, who can make me laugh
who can make me smile and feel good about myself.
just fucked that up.


fuck you. and no i wont help you with that.

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Life is like a merry go round, it spins you round and round, untill you either fall off or it comes to an abrupt hault.
-Kate [me]

hey, Im working on a site, and i need someones help for a couple things.

I was wondering if anyone who knows how to use Dafont.com fonts and has winzip and all that good stuff could help me with a few things, i would do it myself, but i sadly am a pathetic excuse for a web designer and can not figure how to get the fonts to work with winzip.

So, question time.

i need someone to make me a sign in
this font>>>http://www.dafont.com/bonbon-bleu.font?nb_ppp=20

Its going to sound lame, but its a fansite for Oli Sykes, so i need the sign to say:

THE OLI SYKES CULT

lame ehhh?

and i also need one that says

OWNERS

and thats it. if you do it i love you forever.

1)Hum Hallelujah- Fall Out Boy
2)Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's
3)Home-Three Days Grace
4)Here It Goes Again-OK Go
5)Hey Brittney- Forever The Sickest Kid
6)Hero/Heroine- Boys Like Girls
7)Here We Go Again - Paramore
8)Here In Your Arms- Hellogoodbye
9)Helena- My Chemical Romace
10)How You Remind Me- Nickleback

im not emo. but go ahead. label me. then get the fuck out of my way before the storm comes your way.

This is NOT the calm before the storm. its raging, angry and is about ready to fuck up some homes.

Hurricane Katrina Kate

Weweremeanttoliveforsomuchmore,butwelostourselves

basically the song of my life.


I'm in the business of misery, let's take it from the top
She's got a body like an hourglass that's tickin like a clock
It's a matter of time before we all run out...
When i thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth

I waited eight long months three long years
She finally set him free
I told him i can't lie, he was the only one for me
Two weeks and we had caught on fire
She's got it out for me, but i wear the biggest smile


Whoa... i never meant to brag
But i got him where i want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But god does it feel so good
Cause i got him where i want him now
And if you could then you know you would
Cause god it just feels so...
It just feels so good

Second chances they don't never matter, people never change
Once a whore you're nothing more i'm sorry that'll never change
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged
I'm sorry honey, but i'm passing up, now look this way

Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right

Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa... i never meant to brag
But i got him where i want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But god does it feel so good
Cause i got him where i want him now
And if you could then you know you would
Cause god it just feels so...
It just feels so good ..

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving ...

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now ...

Whoa... i never meant to brag
But i got him where i want him now
Whoa... it was never my intention to brag
To steal it all away from you now
But god does it feel so good
Cause i got him where i want him now
And if you could then you know you would
Cause god it just feels so...
It just feels so good

hey brittany
why are you messing with me
is your boy on your mind
is your boy in the car
or are you alone
so why
does everything i say just
make you upset
i'm not here to bring you down
but lift you up
lift you up
so yeah yeah yeah
go ahead and lower it down
lower it down
just a little bit
just a little bit
lower it down

so where do we go
where do we go
you cannot know
you will not know
when you just have to fight to be alone

hey brittany
Lyrics
where is your engagement ring
did it mean anything
does the boy with the ring
know you bounce bounce
bounce around

so how
am i supposed to act when you're around him
when everything he says
brings you down
brings you down
brings you down
so yeah yeah yeah
go ahead and lower it down
lower it down
just a little bit
just a little bit
lower it down

so where do we go
where do we go
you cannot know
you will not know
when you just have to fight to be alone

so where do we go
when everybody knows
when everybody starts to bounce bounce bounce around

so yeah yeah yeah
go ahead and lower it down
lower it down
just a little bit
just a little bit

so where do we go
where do we go
you cannot know
you will not know
when you just have to fight to be alone

Well in the past 2 days i have had to very awkward encounters.

1)in the form of conversation

Me: Daniel takes Viagra
Tyler: Daniel you know the side effects of Viagra is that your penis wont work when your 30 right?
Me: Who says it works now.
Daniel looks at me.
Daniel: Hmmm, theres only one way to find out.
arches eyebrows.

hahah hysterical laughing for a couple minutes.

number 2)

I was dry humped through a chair.

I love you, but please, get the fuck out of my life.
your constant yelling, nagging and bitchy-ness.
No i will not shut the fuck up.
Why dont you shut your fucking mouth and go somewhere far away.
I love you, I hear those words come from your mouth probably only 4 times a week.
If you care, then let me be, you cause me stress, pain, and tears.
not tears of sadness, tears of anger, tears that cant be let out. Tears that are caused from mental breakdowns and fuck ups. Maybe the boy on my bus is right, your mom doesnt love you.
she doesnt, she says she does, but I cant tell if shes lying, like she does wuite often.

today, i was pissed. I wished you choked on your own cigarette smoke.

tommarow, we'll see.

Love you mom.

My Mother is a bitch.
She cant go a fucking day without yelling at me.
I should bet her the 20 dollars I need to by the sweatshirt I want.
Id win for sure.
FHDSNXMNHNSDJHMBSNGHFDNUHMAANHXFJMBHSJAVNGHBX JERK!

Gahhhhhhhhh. tommarow will be better.

toodles.

Im taking kickboxing soon. so i can vent and have 'buns of steel' like Ryan Ross. hahaha

did anyone else catch that in the DVD? or am i making an ass of myself?

wheredowegofromhere?

you crack your knuckles when your upset or concentrating.
you tend to zone out during thinking.
you make fun of people when your feeling down on yourself.
you smile when someone talks about something gross.
you always make me laugh even when its not that funny.
you do the smallest things that go unnoticed, except I always notice.
no one else does.

happy birthday Brendon Boyd Urie.

We all wish you a great day.

xxoo.

I miss you.

I want to go to never never land.

your ambitions and dreams.
that I hope one day will come true.
you want resizing, but darling dear, get a grip.

train wrecks come in diffrent forms.
im one of them.
I admit it.
I cant keep my mind off something I want, but know I will never have.
I know I wont be happy without it.
and at the same time Im happy without it.

I think what I just wrote is going over my head.

sucked this year.
Im sick, and I didnt even get a chocolate bunny.
this sucks.

if you like me, which you dont, tell me.
dont be scared, i like you too, but cant tell you.
your to amayzing.
your looking for a girl to fill that space.
i can be her.
dont be down because you dont have someone there for you.
you do have a girlfriend.
but you dont like her.
or do you.
your open with me and no one else.
we have a bond that no one can compete with.
Im the only one who knows the real you.
your scared and think your alone.
but im here with you.
here with the same issues.
you dont need anyone else.
you do.
your not a screw up.
youve done alot of things wrong.
but not that many.
your not a dick.
your a great person.
I think so.
Ive liked you since the first time I met you.
3 years ago.
and im still finding myself thinking about you.
Is it because I still have feelings after the break up.
Or because you open up to me.
when you dont to anyone else.
no one else knows the real you.
but i do. me and me only.
if we have that bond thats really there.
tell me.
I like you alot. more than I've ever liked anyone ever.
your who I want, who I need.
Someone who makes me complete.
But your going away next year.
we could hang out.
or be more.
Im obsessed with you.
your always on my mind.
always there for me when I need to talk.
always there when i need to breakdown.
im there when you need the same.
Your messing with my head.
and im going insane without you.
Your with her. but, your only with her because you want her to be happy.
But you dont really like her.
You've told me this numerous times.
everyone knows, but her.
I could be that spot.
the spot you say is hollow.
the spot you wish never had left.
you hate what you've become.
I do too.
but i like you for the inside.
not the reputations.
not the looks.
for the REAL you.
the one no one will ever really know.
except me.
but we cant ever work.
when your you.
and im me.
were two diffrent peices of two diffrent puzzles.
neither of us know what each other is feeling about each other.
I like you.
but do you like me.
I think no.
but someone else thinks yes.
I dont know.
you'll never see this.
I dont even think we'll survive next year.
new schools, new friends, new flames.
but we can still talk if you need too.
I know i need too.
your my everything.
my heart.
my mind.
my dreams.
some people say, there are other fish in the sea.
some say, just wait, you'll find 'the one.'
but the thing is.
I've already found him.
but the truth is.
has he found her?

youwanttoknowwhatyougotihaveaplanwecantgetcaught.

isnt it weird when you look in the mirror and your not who you see.
or when someone you love slowly drifts away from you.


i guess its just how life goes. the circle of life if that.

just dont cry out. it only gets you attention. and most of the time thats not what you want.

to much attention gets you noticed, but not likes. shyness is sexy but with its own pros and cons.

but most of all. life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you'll get. -forest gump.

10,9,8,andimbreakingaway,imalldressedupandimreadytoplay.